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[lifesnotasong]

Did great on Wednesday-- woke up at 8 and used my lightbox, ate meals like a normal human, had coffee (well, apple juice and pie at a coffee shop) with a friend, went to the gym, all the things. Then yesterday happened, where I did none of those things and was only awake for ~6 hours. Saw my former short-term therapist this morning, cried in her office, worked with her to figure out how to keep on keeping on despite feeling awful. Decided that while the lightbox is helpful, I should stop making that a goal, because when I don't succeed at using it, my brain starts the day feeling like a failure for not having done so. So instead each day I'll make a list of 4-5 things I want to do the next day, and aim to accomplish 3 of them. Today I want to play board games with friends, clean the litterboxes, eat lunch+dinner, go to the gym, and go grocery shopping. Plans have solidified for the gaming, so I just need to do a few other things and I can call today a success.